Reality

Poetry 🙂


When life wasn’t fair
I cried in despair
I had had enough
This life was too tough

Just as my heart broke
I looked up and spoke
To the heavens in the sky
I begged to know why

Closing my eyes I pleaded
For what I most needed
For that perfect thought in my imagination
To become a real creation

I wished for you to come heal me
Even though you couldn’t exist, really
Honestly I thought no one was listening
As the tears sat on my face glistening

And just when I was about
to accept all of the pain
You stepped straight out
of my brain

Into Reality.

 

Sayli Natu

10/25/2017


 

 

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Judgement

Feeling sad or depressed isn’t something that people wish to feel. When bad things happen to us, they really affect us in ways that we would have never imagined. We end up doing things we never thought we could do, completely out of character, to relieve the pain… even if it only provides temporary relief and a lifetime of regret.

People turn to drugs (legal or illegal) or irrational impulsive behaviors to help numb the pain, drive the sadness away… but obviously that has it’s own slew of collateral damage. What people don’t realize is the power of having someone to talk to. Bottling things up, and holding a regret inside is probably the worst feeling ever. Being able to be honest and open up to someone about depression and your actions without fear of labeling is possibly the most therapeutic thing ever.

But the fear is truly of judgement. If I tell someone about my sadness, or my actions – what if they think that this defines me? It’s not who I am, it was a momentary lapse in judgement due to the situation at that time, but suddenly what if this falsely becomes my identity? I’m not a crazy woman, something really bad has happened to me. But if I talk about it… suddenly I feel like I’m just drama. Why?

It’s not easy to deal with someone who has gone through an immense amount of mental trauma. The fear, the outbursts, the tears, the distrust, the constant waiting for the other shoe to drop. A broken limb takes months to heal… in a cast. You cannot physically cast something so abstract as the mind, or a broken heart… all you can do is listen, try to empathize with a person’s situation, continue caring, continue loving….and not judge.

The world isn’t black and white. It’s easy to jump to conclusions when life has been easy. Walk a mile in my shoes, and then tell me if you still think I’m crazy.

 

Flustered (poetry)

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Who wakes up smiling?
A numbness does spread
Removing all dread
A heart full of fear
Replaced with cheer
A shattered soul
Mended to a whole
But see…
A whirlwind of emotions consume the self
Happy but Scared
Correct? Or erred
Time is important, but time wasn’t taken
It didn’t take time for every sense to awaken
Everything seems wrong, but that wrong seems right
Resisted emotions reach an unreal height
The past did kill, but the future thrills
Wait… who wakes up smiling?
Those who are flustered.
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-Sayli Natu
10/06/17